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Questions are in… what few questions there were, I answered. But I answered all of them and that’s what matters. I didn’t choose which ones to answer and which ones to keep all to myself. It’s exactly the way I promised, so here it goes:

Q: Why don’t you like country music?
A: I know I may make a lot of comments on how much I despise country music. But you know what? I really don’t think country music is all that bad. But that doesn’t mean I necessarily like it either. I just find the music to be depressing. I know it supposedly tells a story and may teach a good moral every now and then, but if I wanted a moral I’d watch an episode of Full House. And if I wanted a depressing story, I’d watch an episode of Country Texas Reporter. The point is: Stories and morals are not the things I care about when I’m listening to music. All I look for is personal value and country music along with rap and the Backstreet Boys just doesn’t deliver that for me. Personal value is what I want. So it’s not anything against country music, it’s just not what I’m ever in the mood for.

Q: What are you going to do when you grow up?
A: I’ve been very fickle with my future goals as most teenagers are. First I thought I wanted to be an actor and then when I actually took a class of drama in middle school, I quickly changed my mind. But I think everybody at one time or another has wanted to be an actor. It’s just so glamorous and sounds so rewarding; how could you not help but dream about it? The next thing I wanted to be was an artist. I’ve always been good at art. My dad was an ad designer and my mom is very creative. I’ve got the best of both worlds. But the idea of drawing my entire life never turned me on. It sounds too depressing and boring and lonely. I also want a more reliable job where I’m sure about when I’m getting paid and when I’ll have work and when somebody will be interested in my work. After that goal disintegrated, I thought about being a writer. And while I am good at organizing thoughts and expanding on ideas, I’ve never been very creative in the writing department. The only reason this journal is what it is is because it’s one big story about my life which isn’t very hard to write about. My life is the only thing I know. It’s easy to write about it and it just so happens to be funny and amusing. However, I’d be horrible at coming up with complex characters and a plot for a book. Another thing is I don’t like staying on one project for very long. I get bored easily. So my life as an author seems very distant. Maybe an autobiography would be a good idea, but we’ll see. Of course, my biography would have to be about something so of course I’d first have to make something out of my life to have anything to write about. My last (hopefully) and current dream is to become a Web designer. If not I’ll settle for being a Network Administrator. But Web design is my passion. It combines art AND computers which is like heaven for me. I’ll definitely be sticking to Web designer for a while. And I’ll let you know if that changes…

Q: If you were 18 (an adult), didn’t know I was in my 40’s, and we were alone together in a dark room so we couldn’t see how old each other were, would you kiss me?
A: If I was going to kiss anybody in a darkened room, there would first of all have to be some conditions settled: (1) I couldn’t be in a current relationship, and I could not have broken off a relationship less than one week before (depending how good the prior relationship was), (2) I’d have to know who the person I was kissing was, (3) I’d have to know you were at least somewhat attractive, and (4) It would depend on how drunk I was at the time because I would never kiss a forty year old. And I don’t mean that as an insult or even a negative comment. There are just too many implications that go along with kissing a person over twenty years older than me. The conditions wouldn’t be right for something like that and it would cause too many problems. So even if you’re an attractive guy with everything going for you, the fact is, forties are way too old for me. Sorry, but you wanted the truth.

Q: “How are you going to answer the hard questions the ones that ask about a boy friend… are you A) going to tell them about this great guy that would do anything for you that loves you to death… That is so sweet and kind and gentle and wants to do nothing but hold you all day and night and watch movies… and loves for you to hold him and make love to him… or B) are you going to leave this all out of your journal, and just say yes I have a guy and I don’t want to write about him in this…”
A: I guess we now know the answer to that question. Yes, I do have a great guy in my life right now, and yes, I do know he loves me very much, and yes I love him very much too. I can safely say that you, James, are the sweetest most wonderful person I’ve ever been with. You’re gentle, kind, loving, sincere, funny, and you never leave my mind at any point in the day. You’re ambitious; you’re smart; and you may not be good at math, but who is? You’re only flaw is the simple fact that you can’t see how really wonderful you are. You can’t see what you mean to so many people, and you can’t see what joy you bring to the people’s lives, mine being one of them. You don’t know how important you really are. You’re very important to me, James. I’d do anything for you and I know you’d do the same for me. Thank you for everything you’ve been to me. And remember: Never choose the path of least resistance. [loving smile]

And that’s it for tonight; only four questions. Over four thousand hits to my site a month and only four questions. But I answered them all. And if there were more, I’d answer them as well…

Good night, James.

I love you.